Unexpected Ending of the Chapter

                                            بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

hi there...salam...im fever today..running nose!
tomorrow is the last day of exams..umm..i dont know why i didnt feel happy..
maybe coz of incident that happened yesterday..
the day before arabic exams
umm...as usual every sunday evening im going back to school..but on that day i couldnt as the house was locked..then i couldnt enter...i should sleep at old house that night..i didnt bring anything ..my need...dont have school uniform than i just borrow from my friend...i didnt have toothbrush as so i didnt brush my teeth on monday :(
that night...i couldnt sleep well..as i think a lot...i feel that wanna leave that school ASAP!!..but i should be patient as that day will come just 2 days only..that night...all my housemate didnt sleep...not all..some of them..they didnt sleep until 5AM!!!
ohmygoat..i heard a noise..they were talking..at 2 am...and so on...3 am...until i woke up at 4..i still heard their voice...then  at 5...the situation was discreet...shhhhhhhhh....
umm..then, after i done my exams, my parents pick me up at that school ..and go to the hostel...pick up alll my things,and my father said come lets go back home...dont need to sleep in here already..!
as my father actually cant drive well as his eyes was not fully recover from the operation..but he could do all this as he loves meeee.. :'(
and actually, that day..we are supposed having a mutual cooperation ..we have to move out from that house on that day so we must clean it up and make the house empty...as im having flu ,im getting headache..i said that i want to go back after clean and bring back my thingss..i told my housemate i will clean my part, then i settle up some part of the house-2 toilet,yard,balcony,and my own room ,of course...
my mom also help me to tidy the balcony..then im done!
i told them ,i have do my own work..tell the teacher i cant join the program..and suddenly, on my way back..i got a misscall from the teacher.... i thought this must be my housemate told the teacher...i dont know why they hate me maybe... while my mom received a message from my principle.....it say that they need my mom's cooperation to allowed me to follow the school's rules...and my mom just replied that i had did my work..i have cleaned my part...then the principled reply 'thanks for the cooperation'
yesssssssssssssssss! im done here!
i think this is the last part of my life at that schooool yeahhh

but,just now i saw on school's group page...one boy asking, hey! our teacher ask when we are going to have farewell program? errrrgghhh!
just forget about it ...if u give me $1000000000 i dont wanna come ever!..

conclusion: I HATE THAT SCHOOL because they always give me trouble...-_-

i think my life at the high school was over ..thank god ...i thought my last day in school is totally sad and unhappy moments...the last day at school it supposed to be cheerful and enjoyment...but its happened otherwise to me...never mind...and i dont mind....just think positive and i should think better for my future....let bygone be bygone ;) anddddddd now the new chapter of my life is begin...i hope it goes well...im really excited to face all the challenges in the new chapter........stay tunedddd !

J4UMFH: u will know that my life actually is not happy...my life is full of problem..but i will erase it all and act like happy girl..i will try my best...just always pray for me ....i will do the same! good luck...miss u <3

1st arab essay ;)

                                        بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

salam...hey, last evening i have post already...but now i want to post something...its about arabic essay,...lets see have i memorize it well or not...theseee can help me in my exam 3  days more from now....actually 2 days :(

okay...lets begin...

the topic is about Hajj...I always remember every moment I was in the Holy Land :D aww really miss it ^^

                                             اهمية الحج واثارها في حياة المسلم

     الحج ركن من اركان الاسلام الخمسة , وفريضة من فرائض الاسلام الكبرى.  وللحج اهمية كبيرة واثره فعالة في        

         . حياة المسلم والمجتمع الاسلامي. فيجب على كل مسلم ان يؤدي هذه العبادة اداء حسنا ومتقنا

ومن اثار الحج في حياة المسلم هو تقوية الصلة بين العبد وربه ووسيلة التقرب الى الله. القلب الذي يدوم على طاعة الله     

وذكره يحيي لا يموت ولا يغفل . والصلة المتينة بالله تجعل الانسان نشيطا ومشجعا في كل عمله

والحج ايضا تزكية النفوس وتطهيرها من الذنوب والمعاصي . وهذه العبادة تجعل المسلم يتجنب على المعاصي والابتعاد عنها 

. ومن خلال من هذه العبادة تمحو السيئات والصغائر . ومن هنا تزكي النفوس وتطهر

ومن جانب اخر الحج ايضا تربية المسلمين على احترام الوقت والقوانين لأن العبادات في الاسلام مقيدة بالأوقات والشروط المعينة . ولا يمكن أداءها كما شاءه الانسان بل عليه التزام الشروط الخاصة . فيصبح المسلم منظما ملتزما ومطبعا 

بالقوانين والشروط

umm...not done yet..shall i continue 2 and 1/2 paragraph more tomorrow? i promise! tomorrow morning..and i will add one more essay.. im sorry...but 'he' is disturbing me..so i can't focus :( im really sorry...i think i should go bed now its 1:07 AM in hereee...better i eat some paracetamol and go to sleep as i feel like sore throat...ohhh! good night sweet heart...salam 3leykom

My heart keep talking but I couldnt hear

                                                                              بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم 

salam everyone...wish u all jom3a mobarak...ensha allah :)

so...lets talk about what my heart sayyyy...ya allah i have do a  lot of mistake in my life...a lot of sinssssssssss.... :(   i really scared if You dont received all my 3mal......i  scared if u reject it :(

i know im not perfect ..im just a weak girl...aww really sad....how could i marry the boy that look perfect in my eyes as im not perfect in his eyes?! :'(

i need your help my Lord..........guide me to your right path....meet me a guy that totally suitable for me,..protect me always,able to guide me right way to your Jannah.....i presume that i can always be his good and pious partner ,the best partner in having a sweet journey of life...aww <3

my heart was speechless....idk ...i dont understand of myself...how could i understand?how  can i face all the challenges and obstacles in my own life...i really need someone to help me....ya allah...umm...i want to change my lifeeee....i want to burn all the sins...really hope my sinsss will be forgiven..

i think i should decrease or better just stop my 'enjoyment' life....i should turn to matured girll...how old am i now? ahhh,pleaseeee....im blurred -_-

oh okay, so now....i ll promise myself...and u! (this computer and keyboard) you are my witness...deal? ok good........lets begin nowww..

next topic:

hey! u know...there is someone added me on facebook...i really like friend with her...but sorry i couldnt state hers name...if u want to know..u can ask me...(if i still remember that time) on 2050 ^_^

she is from alex,egypt..she 'knew' arabic,english and french...sometimes when i didnt understand arabic i could ask her......really great....والله انا مسروووووور بمعرفتها

she kinda good girl..i hope our friendship will be last forever! H _ _ A <3

ok so i think i shall cease here...as its already magrib prayer hereeee...see u soon ...and dont forget to recite al-kahf ...have a nice day 7abebyyyyy 

bad lesson :(

                                           بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

salam.....hiii :D how are you,,,umm...its already 11.30PM in hereee....today i have learnt a lotttttt from my life...and today i knew that i did something immatured...but thats not what i got today...im not such that fool girl...i have brain...i can think..all i want that i dont want to make a thing become worse ...i dont want to turn something become difficult :( but now it happened vice-versa..look..
the incident happened last week..on 3shora's day (thanksgiving day)
my school held a program on that day...actually i couldn't come because there's no one could send me to my school...and finally i decided to text my principle to let she know that i cant come..at first i don't want to text her..but i learn i should be honor and respectable..then i text her...u know what did she replied me...she said that i must come if i am respectable student...or they will be disappointed toward me...oh!!
i really dont understand this life...my life at  that school...i hope this will end soon...ya one week more :P  ahhhhhh 
2 subjects left................oh yeah, im planning for my holiday...about 4 months i think :)

i want to go for english class..or arabic classs...ahh but idk where and how....i search for it but the fee was about 640 ....ah ...my mom said that better i just go to cooking class LOL..it sounds great cuz i can learn or well known as pre-marriage course .....what? is that mawjood in this world....perhaps.........

i cant continue typing..as i feel really tired and sleepy...shall i sleep? ok thanks dear,.,.,.,.
please come into my dream tonight love u..oh ya before that...i leave you with this link..u must watch!!!!!! really sweet and cuteeee <3 ...ok have a nice day 7abeby ^^

there u go :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GJxpKM03q_I

nothing at all ^^

                                           بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

hey...salam....whats up?!
today im 'home alone' ....my mom go back to our village...she has an important thing to settle up with her land at my village...while my father go to buy our train ticket..we are going for vacation this december...!! yeayy

just now i had finished up my science last chapter...ummm...actually i dont have any story or anything interesting to type in here...can u give me some idea to type...ahh..what about if i tell u about my experience when i went to Amman, Jordan.
ya,i went to Amman, Jordan on June 2011....that was the memorable trip that i never ever forget any part of it...hmmmmmmmmmmm actually the  Jordan mood didnt come out...how to type...?
ahhh come on come ...what should i type hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....
lol the net is really slow rite now...its raining cats and dogs in here...

ahh..u know, the latest news about Gaza in Palestine...ya last wednesday is the new year for muslim...we all should celebrated it happily. otherwise in Gaza :(  the israeli started attacking them until today...allah ye7mehem fe gaza

meanwhile, at jordan..i heard a news about raising of fuel price...they hate their current government...i dont know the details...but my mom said if this always happen , i could not go to amman for study :( thats bad...i hope there is no problem already!

i have to go now...im sorry ...there is no interesting story to share...anddd J4UmFH : take care!

the 'pressure' is not over yet...

salam 3leykom ..how are you getting on? i hope u are in pink of health....just wanna update and clean up the web in my blog....yeah im now in exams mood...i have sit for 5 subjects....and 4 subjects more to go :P
....all 5 subjects is al7mdo lila not bad...i can do it well and hope get the excellent result....but...history was quite difficult..i hope the grade will decrease this year so at least i can  get A- for my history...i dont want to get B for history.. :(

..........ya reet!

so?? umm....now im having my holiday for a week...this monday i will continue for the next paper.....pray for me kay...i will finished my last paper on 5th december 2012 (my dad's birthday)
then i will fully-enjoy on that day....ya reet! :P  

just wanna share a story...about my immatured friend...i will tell u later....
and 2nd story about Jordan....awesome! i really feel exuberantly... LOL

ahhhh....i have to go ...thats all maybe...i should continue my study...oh before that i want to download one lovely music by fares - 2lbee nadak <3 ^_^

J4UMFH : hey....i miss u a lot....i presume that u will feel the same...always remember me whenever u are doing ur  prayer and qiyam el leyl ....b7bk awy awy awy awy ! yalla byeeeee 

'Golden Cobra'

this week i feel exhausted....everything happened was horrible and terrible...our dorm almost been search warrant by our principle..luckily, they (the teachers) fail to enter our house...lol..sounds funny...they said our lock was unable to open...nevermind..thats not my main problem...since i didnt do any mistake..and i didnt bring my phone too..except for........................ehehee

next story, i feel upset when my principle called me to her room...and i had been council by her...well, its about a small matter...i am a student that go back to my house every week..for those who is staying in the hostel can only go back to their house once for 2 weeks...but last friday she told me that i cant go back every week...if i want too, just go to class and come back to my hostel...it must be crazy , my house and my school was far...its almost half an hour...moreover my father not feeling well....really upset about that...huh...and i didnt came for qiyam el lail at my school....see , i am very sure this monday i will be scold by her...but i didnt feel guilty because im going back not for enjoying and 'hanging out with friends at The Mines'........ya allah i dont know why because of that
I.D.10.T people i couldnt go back ! they have break the ruless....they went out with their partner and play bowling...then they had been caught...i know the last one was a nice part but i still feel indignant towards them...i ll never let them go..let allah reply and punish them...

maybe until here only...i have to pack my bag...

J4UMFH : dear, im not really happy right now, pleaseeee pray for me have peace of mind and heart kay....u know, if u be an intelligent girl, nice girl , kind, polite, respected by others, did not lie toward people especially our parents... a girl that want to make their parents happy and proud of herself...never made them angry and insulted...try to give the best for them...always study smart, be the best student in school.....well, actually its cant give happiness to her...and the worst is sometimes there are some 'devil' people feel jealous toward that innocent girl...and have a malicious toward that innocent girl......i dont know why and im trying to understand this world , im  trying to adapt to this new situation...yup, this is really really really new for me...it could be hard...but im trying my best to face all the challenges in my life....
i pray and i wish allah will give the best for my good deeds and good intention...may allah protect me from those bad people :( thats all i hope ...o Allah i know You are listening...ummmm....

one more thing...i want to tell u that last two week i think......i have a dreamm..i dont know whether it was a sweet dream or a night mare....u know...i dreamt that i had been bites by a GOLD COBRA
the story begin......
one day i went to a club..i dont know that place...suddenly..there is one sister told me that there is one snake ..its not dangerous and u can play with it..i said to her...are u crazy all snake is dangerous...they have venom and can sting us....she said no..then suddenly the gold cobra come towards me , nearer and nearer....it face seems like smiling toward me...then the snake bite at my arm....i feel hurt but just a little bit...

i dont know what that dream 's mean.............due to my reserach :

1. through Islamic medicine....they said that someone who is dreaming about snake/python/ cobra or whatever....its shows that someone had a bad intention toward him/herself.....this mean the sorcery that sent by others who feel envy to him/her.........but, that snake or cobra that he/she saw in her dream usually black colour...look scary like want to eat her..

but in this case...in my dream...the cobra look happy and didnt feel scared....i mean i ll sweating if i woke up from that dream...but i am not...

2. due to our ancestral beliefs...they said that someone especially a girl who was dream a cobra biting them....its mean that someone (a guy) want to propose the girl or the girl will get married ...

i will get married??? but, how about the gold cobra..am i will get married with a rich man?  masha allah...good news..ameeen for that... :D

oh my god....i trust both two facts....i should be aware if someone have a bad intention towards me...and at the same time i should prepare if someone want to propose me..lol....the time was arrived...i should transform myself to the better girl...may allah give the best spouse for me ! ameeen :) i must stop here...see u soon...hope i dream that i could meet my spouse huhuhu...salam~~ّّّّّ